Kamala Jayanti

November 4th Thursday

Dark Moon (Diwali)

Oh Kamala
You be the Goddess who grounds Love
You are present in the Kisses between Lovers
You make a house a home
Where you are not, the heart rots away
Where you are, there magical Roses Bloom
In the circle of Love

Lavish, Loving, earthly blessing is the tone of Kamala.
On this dark Moon night the search for her love is exemplified.
She is the Woman of boundless beauty, love and sensuality. She is the Woman of all Women that we can never take for granted.
When she is taken for granted, she might be there in form, but the elixir of love be long dead.
This night of Kamala Jayanti is the dark Moon nestled in the middle of the dark half of the year.
It is the night of Diwali.
When we look into the tale of Diwali, we find that the Goddess has been taken for granted and highjacked by the forces of dominance, arrogance and assumption.
(See the Written Tantra on the Diwali story here).


Kamala Jayanti might well be the birthday of the Goddess of Love. But, it is more than just a celebration of her presence, it is indeed also a recognition of her absence, and the voyage to win her hand.

The name Kamala, contains the word Kama. Kama is the name of the God of Desire, he represents the raw principle of pure desire. It is Kama who shoots off his arrows into the chakras and causes infatuation and longing.

When the Bija mantra ‘La’, is added to the name of Kama then we have Kamala.
The ‘La’ Bija (seed syllable) is the vibration that grounds desire – La being the Bija seed syllable for the Kunda, that is the pot that houses Kundalini Shakti at the root of our body. It is the very base of our being.

Ungrounded Desire plays out by putting our energies into things that have nothing to do with our immediate situation in life and love. Tantric practice concerns itself with the most immediate feelings of the heart and the nearest matter at hand.

To ground our desire becomes a fortifying and nourishing way towards the fulfilment of Love. To ground desire is the way of Kamala.

Kamala also means Lotus flower, the Lotus is known for its deeply rooted nature in the soil and soul of the marsh, but it is equally known for its ethereally sensual manifest beauty.
Kamala is the Goddess of the Lotus, displaying the grace and dignity of outer beauty whilst having a grounded base.
Kamala is the authentic feminine beauty, the one who displays the object that calls forth of desire and Love, but hers is not a surface beauty, but a beauty grounded in the most immediate and earthly realities that face us.
With Kamala, there is no fakeness, there is no empty display,
She calls forth a deep robust Love that goes far beyond infatuation.
She does this by having root in the most immediate things.
The Way of a Kamala is a way of nurturing simplicity, a way of honesty and living and loving that which is in our immediate scope. This nourishes and creates beauty and Love.

The way to honour Kamala, is to keep an eye on the empty make believe ghosts outside of the place we actually sit. They are the ghosts that feed on Love and Beauty.

According to the Indian calendar of Moon ritual.
This is Kamar Purnima.
The Full Moon of the Prince envisioned from the perspective of the (Kamari) Princess The potential of the Kamar (Prince) is the King.
Unifying with the princess is the first step towards this potential.
The Kam at the beginning of the names Kamari and Kamar give a hint of the energy of desire that is the first step towards unification.
The Tantrics look for the root and the seed of desire.
The death of the husk around the seed of desire gives birth to potential.
The husk upon the natural desire of the soul is as much a Tantric study as the natural desire itself.
The contents are contained beneath the shell – and so the shell is a reality and of equal importance as the contents. The Tantric view of dualities is embraced.

The word Kama is central to the Lunar Month upon us.
Kama can be translated as desire. We find this word in the title of the well known Indian manual of Love and desire ‘The Kamasutra’ literally the verses of desire.
As the story goes, Kama is the god of desire that sought to bring Shiva from his mountain top samhadi into the realm of Kamari.


Or when the moon was overhead
Came two young lovers lately wed;
‘I am half sick of shadows,’ said
The Lady of Shalott.

Tennyson – The Lady of Shalott.

This is the Moon of Love and Desire.
It is the 2nd Dark Moon of the post-equinox darkening half of the year.

2 is the number of dualities upon the physical and psychic plane.
The number two is the number of the polarity of Love. This nights Lunar ritual explores the dualities and their meeting in great detail.
These dualities are expressed as Kamar and Kamari, they are the inner archetypes of the princess and the prince.


A wild longing for strong emotions
and sensations seethes in me,
a rage against this toneless, flat,
normal and sterile life

H. Hesse

Kama is the word for desire.

The desire that exists between dualities is the mysterious urge of nature to unite.
The Yogi seeks the secret of nature’s unification by stopping to appreciate her.
Tantra is the subtle study of all the places where we oppose nature within and without.

Kama is the jewel between opposites. It is the secret that is hidden in the dark caverns where opposites meet.
Where is that Jewel?


A longing to wander tears my heart
when I hear trees rustling in the wind at evening.
If one listens to them silently for a long time,
the longing reveals its kernel, its meaning.
It is not so much a matter of escaping from one’s suffering,
though it may seem to be so. It is a longing for home,
for a memory of the mother, for new metaphors for life.
It leads home.

H. Hesse – Wandering

Kama is within the name Kamala. Kamala is the Goddess of Love to whom this Lunar night belongs. It is Kamala who presides over the ritualistic applications of the Tantrics on this night.
Kama is the God desire, the raw principle of desire. Kama shoots his arrows into the Chakras and causes desire, infatuation and longing.

The last Bija mantra of La, in the name of Kamala transforms the name Kama (desire).
The La syllable brings grounding to the desire principle.

The La grounds desire, La being the Bija (seed) syllable for the Kunda.
The Kunda is the pot that houses Kundalini Shakti at the root of our body. It is the very base of our being.

Tantric wisdom shows us that grounded desire is nothing but Love. And Love is nothing but grounded desire.
This is the secret implicit in the name of the Goddess of Love. Kamala
To whom this dark Moon night belongs.


Ungrounded desire, on the other hand, is restless ambition.
It is the sick king, full of hot air and hope but no Priya Shakti (Love Power)
We will come to the king very soon in our narrative here.

Ungrounded Love is addiction, obsession, co-dependence – born of an inner unfulfilled neediness.

It plays out in spending our energies in things that have nothing to do with our immediate situation in life and love.

Tantric practice concerns itself with the most immediate feelings of the heart, and the nearest matter at hand that is the best focus for our resources.

If we are to be truly effective in meeting the sacred heart – immediate concerns must be addressed and not avoided by going into extraneous involvements.
This is the grounding of desire.
It is a fortifying and nourishing way towards the fulfilment of Love.


O, solitude of longing
Where love has been confined
Come healing of the body
Come healing of the mind

L. Cohen – Come Healing

The ‘need of the inner neediness’ is to ground desire.
The unfulfilled hunger of longing, at its root, seeks ‘the grounding of longing’.
This work and focus upon the grounding of longing is spiritual focus. Tantric science is built upon this concentration of our inner force.
By grounding the desire within ourselves, the vessel of the sacred heart becomes full and rich with life power. This is known in Tantra as Priya Shakti, which translates as the power of Love.

Tantrics have very detailed rituals for every Moon phase.
By making every Moon a sacred day of honour, we open our life to magic.
Our time here on earth is but a few steps between life and death, we might involve our heart and mind in many things at the expense of magic.
The Tantrics adhere strictly to the currency of magic.


The Tantric takes the seat of femininity at the Shakti Chakra in this dark Moon ritual of Love.
The Shaktistaan Chakra as is known to Tantrics, translates as the place of the Goddess. It is the sexual Chakra of creation, and the seat of Kama (desire)
Kama is grounded in the Chakra of Shakti within this ritual of Love.

The Tantric on this night, becomes both the inner prince and the inner princess and finds and meditates upon the desire that unites the two poles like a magnetic circuit of force.

The Tantric identifies with the inner Kamari (princess) and rises to meet the inner Kamar (prince) energy that dwells in the Chakras above, while at the same time, identifying with the prince and climbing down to the feminine caverns of beauty below in the Shakti Chakra.
The place where they meet is Love.
Like a battery circuit, Shakti is one pole and Shiva is the other pole.
Kamari is the princess Shakti and Kamar is the princely Shiva.
Their union is the the realisation of Kundalini Shakti.


Rani and Raj are well known designations of royalty.
A Queen or a King, in the mundane sense, have been given this title in India since time immemorial.
The marriage of the inner Kamar (prince) with the inner Kamari (princess) is the inner yogic unification of the battery-like energies of plus and minus in the circuitry of our inner universe.
The inner marriage results in a circuitry that unites and heals divisions between our feminine and masculine parts.
This is then reflected in our outer lives. Resolving things inside, resolves issues without. This is the wisdom at the heart of Tantra.
The meeting of the inner Kamari (princess) and the inner Kamar (prince) gives birth to the Queen and King.
The innocence of the prince and princess within ourselves, when brought together, create the power of Queen and King.
Princess and Prince are the potentialities that are yet to unite.
The Princess and Prince are potentials that are not yet united in their power as the Queen and King.


We must not necessarily think in fairy-tale terms of man and woman, although this can also be inferred.
The princess and prince archetype spans across designations of gender.
The macho man has a princess within him.
He may reject her, he may oppress her, or then again he may honour her with dignity and grace – whatever his inner contact to his inner princess may be, it will be translated to his dealings with princesses in the outside world.

The sentimental flamboyant one, might praise the princess in his thought and action, he may affirm to himself that he curtseys gracefully at her court, when in actuality, he might be drowning her in stifling garments… too rich and weighty to allow her to move in an innocence of being.

The dealings with princesses and princess in ourselves and within others occurs on a symbolic level in many of life’s encounters, whatever our gender definition, whether we area woman, man or other designation.
It may well be in the romantic sphere also. Both woman and man may also meet the princess and prince in their dealings with their children, and associates.

A princess is a subtle energy of maidenhood, she holds a yet un-birthed potential.
One can not jump over the princess to the Queen.
To meet the princess takes gentleness and grace.
Many might jump to address the Queen.
Princesses may prematurely pose as Queens.
This is the path of pretence and disempowerment. It reflects the deep inner impatience that casts the Kamari into the cold, even before she has put about herself the warming mantle of the Queen. This has disastrous consequences for all.
The self care and honesty to face oneself as one is, creates nurturing and growing power.
Time and again, the practices of Tantra, show us how impatience, ambition and force do not serve us.

The woman touches her innocence and youth by taking the seat of Kamari. The vulnerable place is the place or rebirth that her seat presents.
Indeed it is the place of power and healing.
The man touches his innocence and sacred humility by which he can meet the hand of the princess when he takes the seat of the Kamar. Again, may we proclaim that the vulnerable place is the place or rebirth. Indeed it is the place of power and healing.

By stepping over the magic of vulnerability, we banish love from our lives and move into the energy of the vain Queen that folk tales the world over mention.
Indeed the ice queen, at once hungry for innocence, but at the same time living in a psychic curse to maintain power.

Perhaps the plight of many a man and woman,

living or dying in unfulfilled Love.

The man humbling himself to take the hand of the princess within his own heart, becomes gentle.
Rigidities melt aside in a psychic and physical melting of the wax that we are made of.
Melting in the flame of Love, which Tantra whispers of.
Whether we are man or woman or otherwise in gender… in the spiritual sense, we are both the princess and the prince and their potential union.

The study of this Dark Moon of Love is about looking at the state of our inner princess and our inner prince. Kamari and Kamar. Shiva and Shakti.
The grace of these two places is beyond the most elegant of jewels.
The softness is heart and body melting. It is soft and silent in its secrets.
The Queen and the King born of innocence, will rule by sacred compassionate authority.
Only a sick king or queen raises the voice in command.

To meet the grand Kamari is a test of our patience and ability to hold our power with grace.


The prince within us all, is the grand Kamar.
If he assumes the throne of a king prematurely, he will have dominance made of empty power.
The prince who assumes the seat of the king too soon, rules in sickness and impotence.

His seat may cause others to tremble, but this position drinks from him as he uses power that he has not earned.
He will be impatient and violent, bullying the Kamari within and even without, into submission.
Of course she may obey him, but the prince who’s not won the heart of his inner princess and earned the king’s boots will lose everything and dry up bitterly without Love.

The Tantric studies such things, and works to heal the inner constellations of energy. The Tantric brings healing salve to the wounded princess and prince.

The Tantric codes have much wisdom to impart in regard to the multi-faceted connections and interrelated links between princess, prince, queen and king.
The science of Tantric mudras that pertain to these subjects and positions, reveals the inner world of our psychic royal court.

The Indian folk tales and written epics, deal greatly with royal archetypes and their spiritual significances in terms of inner and outer energetic constellations. Sometimes the stories have very intricate plots that span across different lifetimes and parallel universes.
Consider the opening chapters of the Mahabharat, if you will.

Romantic love goes through the princess and prince.
This ritual work of Diwali is profoundly healing for our past present and future encounters, between the princess and prince, both in an inner sense, and an outer tangible sense of our manifest relationships.


The true king never assumes the throne, the humble grace and insecurity of the prince is never cast aside for the true king to step into power.
Shiva is the grand king, the Yogins call him Nataraj, the king who dances through the three worlds, of past, present and future, indicated by the three sacred lines upon his forehead. Known as Trilokh in the language of Yog.

He dances hand in hand with Shakti, the grand Queen.
The secret is, that they earn Love and power together by keeping the innocence of Kamar and Kamari.


If in our early life we have grown up under the influence of sick kings and queens, then our inner prince and princess might not have received the space and atmosphere to grow and develop gracefully.
The shadow behaviours that we might be playing out on repeat, may be composed of energetic scenarios of the past.
The wish for the optimal ideal isn’t always the way it works in life.
The prince in us might wear the garments of the pauper, and the princess within us may wear the dirty torn frock of Cinderella before she finds the shadowed grandeur of a Love that lays beneath.

Approaching the princess and prince within ourselves might take a voyage through many a murky atmosphere that has frozen in place in our inner life.

Tantra has been called magic and witchery. It has also been called healing and prayer.
Healing, and an Honest unalloyed view of our reality, is the law that holds the circle of healing together.

The circle of Love


This night’s dark Moon is a big ritual celebration is the orthodox sense all over India.
It is also a major Tantric ritual day that goes by many names.
It is a very dark night that is lit up by lamps in the thousands.

It is known broadly as the Diwali Festival of Lights.
The Goddess Sita is Stolen away from her beloved Raam by the amorous clutches of the powerful Yogi Ravan.
Ravan was one of the greatest Yogi of unbelievable Shakti.
He was a devout Yogi who worshiped Shiva day and night, until he acquired the power of Shiva himself. Having identified himself so much with Shiva, Ravan became the object of his Love and admiration.
The Shiva Tandav Strotra, is a song that praises the beauty of Shiva as no other song does.
It was written by Ravan – as he wept tears of suffering when he realised the greatness of Shiva.
Ravan was so identified with Shiva, that he lifted the sacred mountain upon which Shiva lived. Ravan attempted to show how his individual self was greater than the infinite mystery.
The mountain came crashing down and crushed Ravan’s fingers for infinite aeons of time.
Some even say that Ravan wept the Ganges into being as Shiva kept the mountain crushing upon Ravan’s fingers with the weight of his little toe.
Shiva did this out of Love for his devotee – to teach Ravan that no one can be greater than infinity.
Shiva is the great infinity beyond the beyond. The infinity that cannot be owned or assumed by any. An Infinity to surrender and die before.
Ravan sang the most admiring verses ever sung towards Shiva as the weight of the mountain of infinity, that no one can lift, crushed Ravan into the most painful state imaginable.

Ravan had one little part left that had not merged into Shiva. He had an avaricious weakness for beauty. This avarice was void of grace and honour of the feminine. It was the crude hand of the patriarch that sought to dominate and possess the feminine – This led to his Downfall.
Sita, the cool Moon goddess was a mesmerising and receptive vessel for Ravan’s powerful burning Shakti.
He could not contain the Shakti he had acquired. Ravan went wild and lost his mind at the thought of the beauty of Sita cooling his burning infernos of manhood.
He Took the Goddess of Moon like beauty away from her Beloved Raam with deceit and force.

Remember that this night is a study
of the Ravan within ourselves,
the part of us that wishes to impatiently
possess the Goddess before we
have won her hand and trust.

When Ravan stole Sita away, Raam, the great Solar power lost his Moon.
Darkness and destruction then fell upon the world.
Amvasya is the absence of light when the Moon is dark.

Ravan had overestimated his power!

Sita was brought back to Raam by Raam’s attendant Hanuman.
Hanuman represents the Breath.
Hanuman breathed the Moon and the Sun back together and Love once more was established.

This is the meaning of Hatha Yog

Upon the reunification of the Lovers, an endless array of lamps were lit to guide the flying monkey god Hanuman on his flight with Sita, under his arm, back to Raam.

This story tells of the yearning for the inner Kamari (princess) for the Kamar (prince)
It tells of their loss of each other and the grandeur of their unification.

Like a million lamps burning in the darkest night
This is the Tantric night of deep prayer for the feminine.
It might be prayed with tears?
It might be prayed with the amorous force and desire?

But, it is a night that has been prayed by Tantrics since aeons of time, for the return of the Goddess.
We shall meet in the circle of Love to mourn her loss, and celebrate her return if we have earned it.

To join the ritual touch and
be touched by the rose of Love

Hara Ring